Writes Like A Girl

I know that my writing has been less and less lately.  I’m not sure exactly why.  There are so many reasons to choose from.  But I was sitting here piddling around, procrastinating about filling out this long form for my disability.  I have been chided by  friends to get it done.  Pointed out the sense of urgency.  I had that sense too but frankly it is hard to maintain after almost a year and half.  And damn it the thing is no fun.  It’s long and asks me how bad my life is sense I have become sick.  Well I don’t really need any reminders and I am having trouble seeing the humor in justifying myself all over again for the umpteenth time.  If I felt like this was the time, if I finished the paper work and had all the records sent from my doctors and then they would see the light and rule in my favor this time so that I wouldn’t have to do this again, I would be on top of this everyday.  But my sense is that when this is all done we are going to have to start over from the beginning and do it all again.  Another year of my life spent going rounds with these people.  Of course this time I have a new advantage.  I have an attorney.  They know what to say and do to make this move more quickly.  It was the attorney that suggested reaching out to my congressional rep so that my case could be assigned and after waiting for 8 months it was less than two weeks after the Congress Rep contacted the people who assign the cases and viola I have a case worker. !  So now I have some one to contact and ask how things are going and what they need so I can make sure they get it.  My attorney makes calls but so do I.  Reaching out to my doctors and personally requesting forms to be completed, records to be sent in my experience helps the process move forward more quickly.  After I manage to get through this hateful form I will make sure my attorney has updated information about my medication and I will personally call the doctors and politely urge them to cooperate with the attorney and send them what they need as quickly as possible.

Of course there are plenty of other things going on in my life which makes it that much harder to spend time doing something frustrating and depressing.  But it’s a means to an end. 

We didn’t celebrate Pride when everyone else did.  Our Pride committee made a compromise.  Last year due to the drought, ha ha (it’s been raining for three months), we had to move the party away from our regular location so we did not destroy the grass in the park.  This year we get to have our party in the park but not in the summer when everyone else across the states is having theirs, we are adding Halloween, which is a Queer fest every year to our Pride.  So we are gearing up for Pride on Halloween weekend.  It ought to be a hell of a party.

D has one more weekend to work and then she has some time off including Pride weekend of course.  It’s time to dig in and find out what’s going on and make plans with our Home Girlz.  We need a party.  A celebration.  Some time to take a break from the challenges and focus on the good things in our lives, and have some fun!

Well even if there are long spells between posts I am still here and I will post again.  I do hope to be able to refocus on my writing in the near future.  I have taken up some art work and with the amount of energy I have I can usually manage just one thing at a time.  Right now I am thinking of making things for Christmas so the real submersion into writing will likely not take place until the first of the year.  But then you will hear all about it, I’m sure.

I hope all is well with you and you have something fun to look forward to in your near future!